I don't know what to write and what not to write, because in my last posts i was writing my experience in photography. But in last few days i almost dint shoot. As i was always stuck with other things. People coming home, somebody's birthday,some friends visiting from other countries, parents want me back home. There was so much happening all together that the thing i talk about the most was not at all there. Photography was not there.
how is that sometimes it gets so tough to decide what to do and what not to do. There are few things which always bothered me like will i ever be able to live my life the way i want to live it. And when i say i give i damn to the world, do i actually mean it? will I ever be able to do it? Because its the world around me which decides my ways and my destinations. yes! its them not me. Its always them.
I want to find my own way. I want to stand strong and I believe I will but for that I would have to push my self really hard.
This is such a bitter, but crucial lesson to learn, that most of our actions are controlled by external forces. But, I find that if you fight these social forces very hard, it works for some time, but they re-suface. Instead, it might help to overcome these pressures slowly, little by little. The change is less perceptible but more permanent. After all, the idea is to live with the world, not according to it and not against it either.
ReplyDeleteyes, very true!
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